First time blogging

I don't know where I should begin. This is my first time I've ever blogged; mostly doing this to see if it helps relieve the stress that has been building up for quite some time now. I don't have many people I can talk about these things with anymore. Most went off to college and others have just grown to the point where they find themselves better then others. So if you tak interest in this blog, thank you. If you don't...well I don't really care.

I assume I should start with a little background information first. Well I'm 19 years old and I live between small ass towns that have only one traffic light. I was one of those kids in High School that was made fun of because of my looks and how I dressed. I've always had a weight problem and honestly, I've given up on caring already because of idiots that insist to  bully people because they are fat, how they look, or how they act. I enjoy playing video games(currently having a small addiction to The Sims 3 lately) and writing stories. The one thing I love doing the most is go bowling. Its the one escape I have where my parents do not insist on coming along.

Well I guess I should move onto my problems really. I have low self esteem, I don't find myself pretty nor do I think of my self as being funny or enjoyable to be around. I'm always told other wise. That is not what is bothering me though. What has been eating away at me lately is the fact that I realized that my parents have a possibility of seperating now since my dad got his new job. I know I'm 19 and should be able to handle this better then what I am now, but its hard. My half sister went through it once with my mom and her dad and she was five..she kinda turned out alright. I know its hard on young children when parents divorce...but should I really feel this upset over it? I feel like my whole world is shattering around me. My mom seems to expect me to take sides when her and my dad argue. I really can't...if I did I'd choose to take my dads because I know of all the things she does. Hopefully it clears up soon and that dad gets puts back on first shift...third shift is straining the family just enough to tear us apart. Thankfully tomorrow is league night for me and I'll be out with friends until 11ish.

If anyone really reads this I'd be really happy and greatful if I know I'm not the only one that has felt like this. If you have questions you'd like to ask I will answer them the best I can.