Again it has happened. I went out with my two best friends and the guy just text his on again off again Ex. I really am getting irked by this because it hurts. I feel like I am being ignored by this. It's hot as hell in my room and it isn't really making me feel any better. Today could have been a hell of a lot better, but it won't be. It never is.
I've been feeling more and more depressed lately and it's bothering me to the point of wanting to disappear. I've thought about it many times before, especially when my parents start to fight a lot. I figure I shouldn't complain so much. Some have it worse than me, but days like today really just hurt and piss me off.
"Stacy won't text me back." "I hope Stacy hurries and texts me back." "I miss her. I wish we could get back together." Neither one of them are over one another and neither one of them is fit for each other. They break up a month after dating...sometimes time even a month. I actually feel like I'm gonna cry, but I can't. If I cry right now he'll ask what's wrong and he can tell when I'm lying. I wish this would disappear sometimes if I cannot. I wish that I can actually find a guy who isn't obsessed with anyone...and actually understands what it feels like.
I hope he finds this one day, because when he does, maybe he understands how much it really hurts....Heh, Like that would ever happen. At least he has good looks...guess ugly people won't ever find true love with someone better them then since men never settle or people below them.
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